I think this happens frequently as I have tried to get sober in the past and I am reaching out to all of you for your suggestions and input.
You see, I am well over 40 and still single. I haven't even had a BF in years and as I start to get sober, I start realizing all the things I was missing while I was drunk. (Going on 7 years drunk).
I feel lonely as heck and when I start to sober up, look better, feel better, I start to miss those things. Incidentally, drinking is what happened when the last BF left 7 years ago (he didn't leave because I was drinking, but I started drinking when he decided to break up, I was so upset). But the drinking has also left me keeping a "low profile" all these years because I didn't want to be a raging alcoholic affecting someone's life so I purposely have stayed single.
However, now as I slowly get sober again, those feelings of loneliness come on strong. And I want to drink them away. I start wondering why I am still alone and feel like the older I get, no man would want me anyhow, so why not just get drunk and forget it?
I don't want to drink and I know I can't change my age, but I feel like throwing a pity party for myself and wondering what is the use in getting and remaining sober now?
I see these movie stars or even normal woman on T.V. in their 20s, so young and pretty and wish I was that young again. I suppose most men don't think I look bad "for my age," but I hate that that has to be thrown in there now. The "for my age" thing. Sigh.
Please help.
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